Commitment: Thoughts on Psalm 101

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What does it really mean to have a relationship with God? A “relationship” can be such undefined terminology. I have a relationship with chocolate. We see each other often. Daily, usually.

What puts my interactions with God on a different plane than that?

Obviously it makes a difference that God loves me back. But just try to tell my taste buds that chocolate isn’t filled with affection for me. The feeling sure seems mutual.

One distinction that comes to mind about what a relationship with God can and should mean is something we don’t often talk about.


God is committed to us. His love never lets go.

What does it look like for us to be committed to Him?

I wonder if it looks something like Psalm 101.

Because when I read the “I will…” followed by “I will…” followed by “I will…,” I can’t help but think of wedding vows.

And though I might have chosen different vows than the ones made by David, that doesn’t throw me off too much. After all, we live in different countries and cultures thousands of years apart from one another. And, have very different roles. He was a king after all, and I am not a queen of anything but clumsiness.

But, I hear his commitment and I respect it. He is making promises to God about how He will live.

If this is a contract kind of situation, which is how I have sometimes read it, this doesn’t feel very loving. If David is committing to do these things because of what he will get in return, or out of fear of what will happen if he doesn’t do them, then this Psalm feels like shallow religion.

But what if it is more like wedding vows? What if they are a voicing of David’s desire to please the One he loves? What if David is fully aware that he will fail at some of these things, but wants to try anyway? What if David knows these promises might not be the 100% correct theology, but is more worried about the heart than the accuracy?

I will sing of your love and justice; to you, LORD, I will sing praise. I will be careful to lead a blameless life— when will you come to me? I will conduct the affairs of my house with a blameless heart. I will not look with approval on anything that is vile. - Psalm 101:1-3

If I read this Psalm as wedding vows, I can see something in it for me. I can find inspiration to speak my commitment to God, and hear His commitment to me.

We are in this together, God and I. I am committed to Him, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish as long as I shall live.

This will be my last post for a few weeks.I am taking a blogging break. After making it to 100 Psalms (yeah!) I realized that I have been burning myself out on content-creation, and need some space to work on some brewing projects in other areas of my life. Please join back with me for Psalms series and other posts in early June.

Link up with your own reflection on Psalm 101 below.

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The Commitment

Wow, when it rains, it pours. Two guest posts in one day. I feel blessed and honored. This one is for Good Women Project. When I heard they were focusing on relationships and dating in February, I couldn’t resist sharing this story from my life.

Here is a snippet:

It was a Tuesday afternoon. I was taking one of those wonderful after-class naps that are the bread and butter of college life. Until the phone woke me up. It was a guy. He asked me to a movie. I said yes.

The only problem with this response was what had happened a week earlier. ONE WEEK earlier. The day I wrote this in my journal…

“My past history shows my tendency to look for security in a male. If I don’t commit that problem to God, whatever relationship I enter into won’t be a healthy one…. For at least 1 year from today, I will not date anybody. That way, I can focus on my love for God and my relationship with Him.”

My reasons for making this commitment were good. I needed time for healing. I needed time to focus. I needed time for my identity to be rooted in God’s love for me.

But now, here I was, having said yes to a movie with this guy.

Because it’s not really a date if it’s a Tuesday, right? And if it was someone I was friends with? And if he didn’t pay? And if we didn’t hold hands?

Click here to read the rest.

you mean, that was meant for me?

The problem with writing a blog is that I have to read the words I write. A number of my posts are written because I have learned a lesson that has helped me, and I feel inspired to write about it. Other times, I write about something, and realize afterwards that it is a lesson I have not yet learned.  In actuality, even the posts that fall into the former category also fall into the later. I am a work in progress.

Such was the case with a post from a few weeks ago, titled Slow to Obey. In that post, I wondered in what areas of my life I was being slow to obey God, and missing out on the blessings He had for me on the other side. In the time since that post, I have realized a glaring area of pokiness in my life: baptism.

I have never been baptized as an adult. Depending on your theology, that may not be an area of disobedience for you, but because of my theology, it was for me. As I read the New Testament, I see people choosing baptism in response to hearing and accepting the Gospel message. I have come to believe that one should be baptized after believing in Jesus, in obedience to His command (Matt 28:19) and as a symbol of the new life available through Him (Col 2:9-15). *

The reason I haven’t been baptized is what really makes this point clear. I did not like how it would make me look. My theology of baptism came into focus after I was working at a church. It felt awkward to me to get baptized so late in the game, so I avoided it.

However, I am avoiding it no longer. This Sunday, November 6, 2011, I will be baptized. I’m excited to finally follow through on something I have been thinking about for a long time.

As part of the service, my story will be read: the story of how I came to faith, why I follow Jesus, and why I want to be baptized now. I invite you to be my digital witness by reading my story here. I hope it encourages you and reminds you of what a wonderful God we serve.

People who know me may be surprised that I am getting baptized today. Not because I do not follow Christ, but because I have followed Him for so long. Here is my story.

I grew up going to church, as much out of expectation and tradition as out of belief. While there, I did come to understand that I was a sinner, and that Christ died for me. However, much of what I learned seemed distant. I was taught the doctrine of our denomination, but not the life-giving potential of faith.

When I was ten, my parents divorced. The circumstances around their split left me feeling rejected. Throughout my adolescence, I tried to cope with this in different ways. At first, I was angry, becoming the detested person I thought I was. Then, I tried to earn love, either through achievement or through molding to what others wanted me to be. I realize now that I was looking for the love and worth that only God can provide.

My freshman year of college, I began attending a Christian campus group and a Bible-believing church. I was getting on the right path. Still, my search for worth was pointed at God’s community, not at God Himself.

The following summer, I was a counselor at a camp with no fellow believers. I made poor choices, and returned to school with doubts and regrets. Meanwhile, my Christian roommate returned to school on fire for God. I was faced with the choice of two paths. Did I want to be a church-goer or Christ-follower? What would bring the hope, love, and life change I had been searching for? At that time, I decided that if faith in Jesus meant anything, then it meant everything.

I gave Christ authority over my life, and many things changed. I joined a Bible study. I volunteered with the church youth group. I changed my major from engineering to social work. I began dating a wonderful Christian man who later became my husband. Eventually, God then took me from volunteering at church, to working at church, to going to seminary, and finally, to becoming a children’s pastor.

Throughout that time, I began to wrestle with my theology of baptism. I had been baptized as an infant, and at first, did not feel convicted to get “re-baptized” as an adult. But then I came to believe baptism is something people should choose to do after placing their faith in Jesus. I felt a nudge to be baptized again. Yet, the timing felt problematic. I was already a pastor. How would it look for me to say I want to be baptized now? Hadn’t my friends and family already seen my desire to follow Christ through my life choices? What more would baptism add?

For a long time, the awkwardness of the situation kept me from moving forward. But then Pastor Craig told the story of his own baptism, which happened after he became a pastor. He took away my last excuse. I realized that my slowness had become disobedience.

I want to be baptized to demonstrate that I love Jesus more than anything else: more than family traditions and more than outward appearances. My family has just gone through a major transition: a new community, a new job for my husband, and a new role for me as a stay at home mom. Through this baptism, I want demonstrate my desire to follow Christ with the next leg of my journey, just as I have with the last.

Romans 12:1-2 says, “Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” I pray that today’s baptism will be a reminder to others and to me that my life is my living sacrifice to a loving God.

I pray that you, like me, will remember that it’s never too late to follow through on something God has placed on your heart.  

* For a great little resource on the theology and history of baptism, check out the booklet created by Blackhawk Church.